Amy,

I tried so hard today and it was all for nothing. I come home and I get hurt. I don’t want help anymore cause I’m tired of having to fight to keep it. Nobody wants to help they just want to see me fall through the cracks, when I;m already falling through. I’m tired of this. I am sinking further each day and Im not going to be around much longer. I can’t take it. Everyone can let me go, cause that’s what they think is best for me but they better not show up at my funeral, actuallly I won’t have a funeral so that doesn’t matter anyways. I doubt anyone will notice anyways. I’m done. I’m blowing up at people when I NEVER do things like that. I blew up and swore at a guy at the coffee shop. I called an apologized and the manager, what the heck,. she gave me a free meal for apologizing. I didn’t deserve a free meal. I did it again on my way home from my walk. I’m getting worse and there not a thing I can do about it. If agencies want to let me go, fine.. go right ahead. I cant fight anymore, I just dont have it in me. I had a long walk, birds ate out of my hands, got a few pics but WHAT’s the point??? I just fell apart anyways. I’m better off just never going out again. I can;t do this. I dont needd any help numbers cause I’m NOT telling my story over again. It doesnt help to have some teenager on the other end of the phone says ‘Oh it sounds like a difficult day’ NO kidding it is. I’m done. I’m sooo done. I can’t do this. I really, really can’t. Ive had enough of this struggling. I’m sorry to hurt yiu when you’ve been so so kind to me. I ;m so sorry Amy. I just hurt too  much and ppl think it’s OK to take services away from me or keep changing them to suit them NOT me. I can’t fight this fight anymore. 🙁