Dear tonorli:

You wrote, “I just feel trapped in this and like something constantly feels wrong and uneasy”- this is the natural experience, I believe, that happens when you are separated from the object of your emotional attachment. Not very different from a child being separated from her comfort blanket, something feels wrong and uneasy.

Of course this man is not a blanket, but he is still the object of your attachment. So it feels wrong and uneasy, for now. Later, when the attachment is weakened and then gone, you will feel much better.

anita