Yes! I needed to confesses it somewhere else than just my small inner circle. I needed to vent it out more. I am not feeling as much pain as I maybe should because I am more frustrated with this situation. For him everything is just great between us but it makes me aggressive when I bring the topic up and he just shuts himself down. What a pity I can’t read into people’s true intentions.

On one end I don’t want to continue this relationship in minor fear that he will go astray again and on the other end I don’t want to break up a relationshiop that could have been beautiful.