@maggie mac, thank you so much! I’m definitely going to try that. I got to see him at the gym today and things at first were bad. I told him I was going (he works there) and when I got there, he wasn’t at his desk so my anxiety was like “he’s hiding from you!” so I started crying and I texted my sister and she said some things that made me feel 10x worse. I stayed and did my work out though and I’m so so proud of myself. After, I saw him and he said he missed me and he’s really sorry for not being around much and explained he’s using his days off this week to move stuff out of his apartment. We talked and joked around and I felt better. I did get sad because customers came in and he had to go and he just patted my arm and told me to drive safe, he didn’t say he loves me like he always does. He texted me later and told me he’s sorry he got busy and again, I got anxious that he didn’t ask me if I got home okay like he always does. Small stuff like this makes me feel like he doesn’t love me anymore. It’s becoming really hard to deal with my anxiety. Thankfully, I see my therapist this week and hopefully that brings some relief. I’m also thinking about getting medication. I feel like my anxiety is less intense when I’m on it.