Dear anita:

I definitely agree that I need to find an outlet for my anxiety. Anxiety has always been with me, but I used it in productive ways in the past – to avoid procrastination, but clearly this is no longer the case. If there’s one good thing that came out of this incident, it’s that ive realized I can no longer ignore my anxiety issues and should find ways to address it head on.

I am still having a hard time forgiving myself. I know I need to move on – refine my skills, look for and apply to new jobs – but I simply can’t forgive myself for burning this opportunity. It’s an awful feeling to know that I’ve chosen misery rather than fight through anxiety.