I’ve been dating a guy for about 6 months now, we were friends for years before we started dating so we’ve known each other for a long time. I feel like I’m unconsciously sabatoguing the relationship and I don’t really know why. I dated someone before this for about 3 years and it was horrible we broke up and got back together every few months, it was unstable, he cheated on me and lied to me. I feel like because of that I have a hard time talking about my feelings and asking for things from my current partner but I feel like I’m not a priority for him and I don’t know how to have a conversation with him about that. Instead the last couple of weeks when I have had too much to drink I just say a bunch of things and he gets mad and says when we’re drinking is not the time to talk about it. This has happened twice. Now I’m worried I’ve ruined  our relationship for good by not being able to talk to him but I don’t know how to make things better or how to communicate with him in a healthy way. I care about him a lot and would like to be able to work things out although that may not be up to me at this point.