Dear Anita thanks God you are herenow when I am reading this tears is in my eyes . I am so happy I can share Evey things with you thank you so much .

I know we have difference hours but even reading your message after 15 16 hours charge me again and give me motivations I deleted pics burn letters keep some cloths for wearing and I said to my self don’t think and remind him at all .now I feel more peace just I am worried about what will be happend in future no body knows what future hold for me it make me little worried .and because some time I did this horrible huge terrible mistake I am worried I do it again .today I was reading and searching I don’t know am I bypolar person manic depression  in stainless moody I don’t know really I remember one time he told me oh Eli because you are not staible and you don’t know what do you want I can not count on you and you don’t give me any power to move mountain for you and leave my wife .

Is it really some thing wrong at me