And hes not intimate with me for the longest time.  He says its him not me. So I doubt his attraction and maybe im a fill in until something better comes along. And he never talks about marriage or nothing. He seems to think that I’m happy just cruising along with no real commitment. To some marriage is not important, to me yes. All these things have driven me crazy and contributed to my problems and our fights.  Im scared that somehow i’m a flatmate and I don’t know it.  I cant even contribute to paying off the house that he calls ours. I pay groceries and bits and pieces. Its frustrating,