Thank you both for your very thoughtful and considered replies x

You’ve both made really good points and I feel assured by them. They are exactly what I’d say to someone else, but as we all know it’s so much harder to apply them inwards!

Valerie, I think the rejection issue stems far back, and it is something I’m working on. I have had therapy in the past and it did help a lot, just more recent events have brought it back up, but I am aware it’s a process I need to work through. The fact he isn’t ready for a full on relationship is actually a good thing for me as honestly I’m not either, and it’s teaching me to live more in the moment, and not to want for things. I’m actually very happy with the situation as it is, but obviously I just don’t want to let any issues I have spoil what is a very lovely relationship just as it is. Thank you again 🙂 x

Anita, very good point! I do know he’s only human, but he’s just honestly the nicest man I’ve been involved with and a wonderfully involved and loving father to his children, which I admire greatly. I agree ofc he’s not perfect. he has told me something about his past which would be seen as a bad thing, I’m just very understanding and nonjudgemental, as is he so i know he doesn’t judge me either which makes how i feel ridiculous actually! because its not an issue for him at all to know things about me, but I will try to bear this in mind and not put him on a pedestal. Thank you 🙂 x