Thank you all again for your responses.

I am trying to just push forward and keep doing what I always do. I just want to trust my judgment and know that even if the relationship has ended I will heal and find someone else. I guess my mind wonders wow what if I meet someone else and I have this same type of anxiety where i express myself and then they dont accept what I have to say.

That was my deep fear and he did ignore me basically after that. Which my fear became reality. I do feel I am learning something from this because I have never been the one to truly end a relationship. I usually  would stick around until the other person ended it. I have always been so nervous or scared to let go in fear of being alone. But after my last relationship I promised myself I would not settle for less than I deserve. So i think this is why I second guess myself because I am afraid that I will be less whole without love in my life. But something told me this time that I just need to do it because if I dont the same patterns will keep repeating and I truly want to move on from old patterns!

But its true, if someone wants to be with you, they will try. I feel slight guilt from ending relationship because I think wow maybe I didnt see his side of things…but thats when that old pattern of behavior comes in and makes me settle for less!! So I am trying really hard to let go of those thoughts.

I was talking to my mother and a friend and they said guys don’t like when we express ourselves in that way or put it on them. They can’t handle it or it can be a turn off.

This makes me so upset because, I just cant be in a relationship where I cant freely ask or say what I want with obviously consideration of the other persons feelings.

Anyway these are my thoughts!!!

Thank you again-Kylee 🙂