Dear Lea:

No need to apologize, for not responding sooner. I respond to everyone on the same day, or the next, but I don’t expect others to do so. Post when it is convenient for you. I am sorry to read you had a mental breakdown (I don’t know what it means, for you).

I think it is a good idea that you sent him the message in which you let him know that you will be deleting him from all social media, so to improve your mental health (to not see him rejecting you again and to not freak out about his potential responses, as you stated).

“I’m not sure if I did the correct thing by deleting and blocking him from the social medias, because I want to know his answers, but on the other hand I’m really scared of it”- I think you did the correct thing, although I don’t know if you can resist the temptation to un-delete him.

Five days ago, Aug 12, you wrote:  “I can’t stop having this constant thought about what is in his mind concerning me. Does he think about me? Did he move on? I try to find clues everywhere, over analyzing.. How come I’m unable to move on.. I know I’m being irrational but I can’t fight those thoughts”, and today you wrote: “I wrote to him because I needed to spit out my thoughts in order to find my own inner peace.. I had to delete him..”-

– reads to me that you’ve been obsessed with him. Notice in the quote from five days ago, you wrote that you can’t stop thinking about him, looking for clues (in social media, I am guessing, in everything he posts), being irrational, “can’t fight those thoughts”- reads like obsessing about him. Were you ever diagnosed with OCD?

anita