It’s just so hard. My whole life I have hated myself. The only thing I ever appreciated about myself was my intellect, and now it feels like that’s gone. When I look at my life all I see is sadness and addiction and chaos and loneliness. I see nothing worthy of love and acceptance. I am trying to take a leap of faith that doing therapy, sharing on this message board, and reaching out to people in my life will help, but I’m so sceptical. I can’t imagine what it would be like to love and accept myself. It’s such a foreign concept.