So I need to clarify. I’ve been with my partner for almost 8 years. I married almost three years ago. This was pre-covid. I agree with him  because I am so lost, I do feel selfish. My partner was both emotionally and to the end physically abusive. It only happened once but that was what got me to leave. I didn’t want to leave – my brother came to get me and I’ve been living here about three weeks. I thought he would get it – see that I left and take this seriously – profess his love and apologize and really. want to change – instead it’s been demands, anger, threats of suicide and more. There has not been an I love you or an I miss you – mainly attacks then “what was that brand you buy from the grocery.” It has disgusted me. I learn more every day – of the lies I have lived with about our marriage, wedding, relationship. There was no cheating – just lying about events, name calling and so on. I don’t know what I’m doing – I just know right now I am absolutely heart broken – and I just want to find my way back to myself – and purge this awful feeling out.