Dear TeaK,

I have a hard time letting go of love. I want to explore every avenue before I throw in the towel on relationships, even bad ones. And at the time I definitely gave too much credit to “long distance” as the issue of our relationship, and not on my ex himself. His behaviour was the same when I got back from Japan, and when I asked for therapy he denied it.

I believed what he said this time, because of all of the negativity that surrounded our breakup. He never would have “stooped” to admitting he had made a mistake or regretted anything when we were together, so hearing these words from him was a shock.

He apologized for everything, for blaming me for my anxiety and depression when he should have shaped up himself. When his current girlfriend texted and asked where he was (she was nervous about us meeting), he immediately responded and even sent a picture of the restaurant sign to show her. He did it naturally and without a fuss, but when we were together a simple “I’m home” text was always too much to ask of him.

The past day has been difficult, it feels very similar to an actual break up again. And I really appreciate you reading and replying.