I honestly don’t know. He says that it isn’t me. He said he just gets nervous asking anyone over but he has no problem hanging out without me. My ex husband used to always have a life away from me. I never really knew everything about him because he was so secretive. Every time this happens with my current husband it brings back all the same feelings. Like, what is wrong with me that I attract men that do not want me apart of all of their life. My husband says he does but his actions show something else.
Before I married my first husband I dated a man that was a closet gay. He never wanted me to get close to him, but he loved having me to show off as his girlfriend. My second boyfriend I believe liked men as well but he was also closeted. I don’t believe my husband is gay but it always brings up so many old feelings from past relationships that I’ve had. It brings out every insecurity.
He says he wants me to trust him and that he trusts me 100% but I struggle to do that when I just keep asking myself when will this happen again. I just began to let my guard down with my husband since the last time he did this. When his friend was going through a hard time I said he’s welcome to come here and he just kept telling me that he doesn’t want him too and he wants his weekends with me. Then Friday I get a call at work from my husband, being so sweet saying he loves me. For a second I felt special then he says, he won tickets to a game and him and his friend wanted to go. I said cool but as soon as I hung up I felt sick. Like really? Again? Then I tell him it upset me and how this brings up everything again. He knew I was hurt. He said he didn’t want to tell his friend no and upset him. Yet he was ok to upset me. How do I move on? How do I trust him? Why is it so easy to hurt me but not friends?