I like that response, “better than some; not as good as others.” I think it sums up how a lot of us are feeling these days quite nicely!

I have taken a leap of faith and started therapy again. This was a hard step for me, but an important one to taking my life back. I have suffered from a lot of PTSD, abuse, and my self-esteem has been practically nonexistent (as you may recall from previous posts of mine). I have a long road ahead of me, but I like where this chapter has taken me so far. I have noticed small, but significant improvements since taking this next step. I no longer make time for people who contributed to the problems that led me to start therapy again and instead, I surround myself with the people I want to be more like. It’s not linear – some days are better than others, but I’m getting to a place that will add more meaning to my life I think. I’ve been doing some homework, as suggested by my therapist, that’s helping me fall in love with myself slowly, but surely. I haven’t given it a second thought whether I’m conforming to someone else’s standards or not. I don’t worry if I’m too much or too little for anyone. I just exist as I do in the moment . I think I’m surrounded by the right people at this stage in my life as well. So safe to say I’m doing better since we last talked.