Dear humour:

Your kind reply made me smile, thank you!

You wrote in your most recent post (Nov 17, 2022): “Currently I listen to a lot of music to let my emotions dissipate in a healthy way, but have caught the negative habit of binge eating too“.

Back in Oct 2016, you mentioned your desire to make good memories 3 times: “I feel like making good memories.. I finally want to make some good memories in life and make friends… I’ll work on making good memories”.

In January 2017, you wrote: “I want to get back to being cheerful… I want to find love, freedom, joy within myself and without… I want to forget everything, be reborn and just have fun”.

In June 2017, you mentioned good memories again: “Just to set a context, I want to a write a line or two about my family… we never made any memories…  All of us have been depressed on and off.…we have intimately suffered as a family… I wish there were good memories… I want to be joyous, healthy and have fun”.

It seems clear to me that what motivates your binge eating (same as has motivated my own past binge eating) is to substitute the bad memories of your childhood with the good feelings involved in eating;  to no longer feel the familial depression and intimate suffering and instead, to feel good, cheerful, to feel as good as love, freedom, joy, health and fun feel (all the words you used).

I suffered from binge eating for quite a while, and I will be glad to share about my struggles with it and how it came about that I no longer binge eat. If you are interested, please let me know.

anita