Hi Stellardust,

wise words indeed. Thank you for replying. I was definitely sure what I wanted and ready to move on if these wants were not mutual. After some time apart and not talking to be able to think on what is important to each of us individually, he reached out and asked to meet. I let him talk freely, he said that he feels like his fears are preventing him from being happy and that he has been doing (and wants to continue) to work on that and arrived at a decision that he wants to be exclusive. Not because he missed me (which he did but it is something one can eventually get over) but because he realized how deep the connection ran and how we come together as a team. We discussed his fears, hang ups and other things in depth, same with mine as I have them too, of course.

It was a very long conversation that felt both, exhausting and enlightening, we were both vulnerable without asking the other person to be just that. He is sure he wants to be committed and says he knows exactly why. We spoke about strategies to address feelings as they come and how to be honest with each other in the moment. So I will take it from there, we have plans for some trips in spring and summer. I’m glad I stood my ground and I still feel the same, I would have been ok either way.