Hi Anita, well being a soldier means to stay tough and fight an enemy in a physical way. The symptoms i feel of my life, are in the end, physical.. exhaustion, tension and stress in my body. I dont want to go off on another tangent but another factor can be hormones and changes im going through (menopause). I feel im aware of all these possibilities but i just wonder why everything feels so difficult for me when other people are much lighter.