Im still a bit nervous about going back to her, because I’m afraid that I will end up hurting her again and I think that I have convinced my brain that I don’t have feelings for her so much and for so long that I’m afraid that I don’t really more. I can also feel that the thought of breaking up with her doesn’t even make my cry anymore because I’m so used to thinking that it is the only way out of the fear. Could it be that I have just lost feelings? But again when I’m with her everything seems so good and the only times where I question my feelings is when I think of the days before where all the thoughts have been around.