Can I start by saying thank you and telling you that you are A.M.A.Z.I.N.G such an understanding of someone and their needs is so comforting to read it really helps.

Every word you have written is true I don’t ever look at my services like that and I do belittle everything I do as “ it’s just a haircut” and “it’s only a breakfast” anyone can do it. I put so little credit to these things myself so I suppose I am judgemental of others thinking they feel the same. I wish I knew where that came from I’d like to stop that.

I am in physical pain constantly from my feet all the way to my eyelids, years of standing on my feet I suppose but I do have good calf muscles 😂. I do my best to alleviate the aches and pains by taking up yoga recently and resting as much as possible(going to bed early). I don’t think being over 50 years of age can be underestimated either, it’s quite a physically wearing age I’m finding; which for someone who on and off has been fairly fit throughout their life.

You’re so right, holidays are where I am happiest and as I mentioned previously I’ve had a wonderful life with two daughters who’ve I had the most wonderful years with, watching them play and grow but who are now young women of 18 and 17 and are not my little girls anymore;  which I’m finding so difficult as the family dynamics are completely changing. One is off to university and the other leaving high school to do A Levels there has been a lot of adjusting to them changing over the last few years things are not the same.

i do catastrophise everything it’s been my biggest problem. All the things i could have done but talked myself out of it preemptively foreseeing a disaster at every point. This I have to address before it’s too late.