I thought she was the one, silly thing to think at the age of 23, but good things in each of us are great.. We have a lot in common, she was my best friend..

But she hid and I believe hides things, she also lies and at times I feel like I do t know her. The first part of our relationship I do us out she still had feelings for her ex, that’s when I started feeling certain things, I asked if she still loved him etc and the past year she has said no, but after the amount of times she has lied it’s hard to believe. I guess looking at it we aren’t what we both want, I want someone positive and happy, that’s wants and also shares love and affection, and I guess I’d always try and get it out of her etc..

I do t know if she has actually done wrong? Or I’m just over reacting, or that we truly have different beliefs, with how we have grown up and what’s happened in our lives..

Just so much on my mind, I still live her and think about her everyday, but it seems she is adamant that this is over and that we go in different directions, this is where I’m lost because I agree, but still want her. I was dependant and attached to her and what we had.

I think I’m still bitter that she used me towards the end and couldn’t communicate donuts she had.

I just do t know hahaha