Hello,

First of all I am very concerned to hear that you have suicidal thoughts. I am sending you all my love and warmth from Manchester England and I want to tell you that I believe you are very brave to post this and even braver for trying to pursue your dreams.
Sometimes the people in our life love us but because they are scared of taking risks and follow their dreams themselves they tell us that we can’t follow our dreams !! They are wrong – trust your guts and your instinct !! Make new friends with people taht share the same passion as you and will inspire you in the positive !! I think what you did is awesome and I do not see why you could not travel again.. Other people definition of what is acceptable is that and only that THEIR definition NOT YOURS – You can create your own happiness and reality with its good and bad like all of us but I believe you should follow your heart and believe in yourself !!! I am 36 years old and I have a lot of dreams similar to yours and I will not let anyone tell me they are unrealistic. it is their belief not mine! If you truly want something go get it because even if it does not work out the way you want you will learn , grow and more importantly you will be doing, living, breathing your truth 🙂 You are beautiful, brave and please do not compare yourself to your sister she is following her path and it is simply a different path from yours. start following yours even if it is a less traveled path.. to me it is even better 🙂 Just be you ! Only compare yourself to previous version of yourself and never to anyone else !! with loads of love and positive vibes sent for you. Life is beautiful and so are you, embrace all that you are and believe in yourselves and find people who will support you and be enthusiastic like you about travelling, growing doing different things 🙂 kisses,Marie