You’re welcome. As far as justifying, consider that things don’t happen for “no reason”, there is always a cause. It seems like the cause you’re leaning toward is either 1) a character flaw in him, or 2) a character flaw in you. To me, this betrayal feeling seems driven by your fear that he hasn’t chosen you, even now.

Do you feel betrayed that a chicken isn’t cooked the moment you put it in an oven? That it takes time for the heat to reach the center of the bird?