Sorry about the typo’s.. 🙂 want to also add that i am still freelancing but have lost all passion for it in comparison to how it use to be.. im still trying to get work but it just seems liek work now, when i get bouts of rare inspiration and excitement it quikly fades.. i am also with a lovely guy (my first relationship) and i dont believe he really ‘knows’ me because i dont feel like i am much of a person anymore, so im usually hidden and find it hard to express myself around him, and be myself, be happy and loving (which comes easily to him) I wonder why he is with me and seeing how amazing he is makes me not like where i am at even more.. makes me miss the feelings even more. I believe he may somehow see these things within me, but i still feel as though im giving him half the deal. I want to fix this, but feeling totally stuck once again – can i not ‘do’ life???