Hello lovely,

It sounds like you are really going through a lot- and I really feel for you. It might help to know that a lot of these issues are experienced by lots of people- but so few are brave enough to express it- so well done for expressing it!
I have experienced many of the problems you have and worked with many clients who are struggling with these issues- and my first suggestion is a little bible that helped me at 19 called ‘You can Heal Your life’ by Louise Hay- (my apologies if you have already read it!)
I really struggled with self-love after some rough childhood trauma- and this book was like a soothing balm- and 20 years later- I still read it every year. With a highlighter in my hand. The journey to self-love can take a while- but once you embark on it- you will find life feels kinder and more gentle.
My other suggestion if you are open to it- working with your angels. Learning more about angel medicine and how you can call in your spirit guides to heal your wounds, your self-loathing and find more purpose in life. You are only 22 and you might feel like you have to have all the answers now- but its ok that you don’t. Most people don’t discover their life purpose and what they are meant to be doing until later in life- but you can call in your angels and ask them to help you feel more at peace with your journey and ask them to help you have more trust that you will find your perfect vocation in perfect time.
I started off doing a media degree- and ended up become a drama teacher- and finally a healer and psychic healing instructor- all of these things have added to my life tremendously- but I wasn’t ready to be a healer and psychic healing instructor at the age of 22. I had to go on the wrong path before I went on the right path.
Ask the angels to help you find your path in perfect time.
My other recommendation (not sure if I am allowed to recommend books here- sorry if I am not) is the power of now by eckholle tolle. He is one of Ophrah’s faves- and I love how he helped me calm my mind using Buddhist and Christian philosophy. Very easy to read- and very healing.
I do agree with the above though about finding a therapist- I really feel like that could go a long way to getting to the bottom of where all this trauma and self-loathing comes from:))
Hope that helps gorgeous!
Sal Jade
Clairvoyant Healer