Thank you for your replies Christopher and Sarah!

Christopher – you’re absolutely right, it shouldn’t matter whether he’ll end up regretting it as I should be focusing on myself right now rather than thinking about things that don’t matter nor will speed up the healing process. Since you’re going through a similar thing, I hope you’re doing ok!

Sarah – I agree that if he was to ever realise it would be a long time away from now! And that I should be focusing on myself right now which I am and I am feeling better! 🙂