My good friend years ago said to me and it still resonate in my heart: if your freedom is being threatened in any way, it’s a big red flag.. And if you even FEEL your freedom is threatened, it’s a red flag. Like even if I’m deluding myself that she is subconsciously keeping me in this invisible prison feeling.. it’s gotten better, and the bad, better, and bad again. Confuses me. Answer me this, why every time we fight I feel like it’s the first fight we’ve ever had, like I feel so unprepared and lost and vulnerable as if I don’t know this feeling, when really we’ve had numerous debate.. I should know better. But I feel so naive to it all. Like I am under this love spell and when it’s broken, my world shatters.. it’s weird can’t explain it..