Hi there Kate, I thought I would send you a message. When a relationship ends it is devastating to say the least. However what you are doing and going through is a very healthy process. To let out all these feelings only does you good rather than holding them in and crying is a great way to release all the built up emotions.Yes healing takes time and it can feel so lonely and feel like everything is stacked up against you however everything that happened in the world is for a reason. You have to go through these life problems so you can learn from these experiences and be the stronger better self that you can be. Think of a tree when it starts growing it goes through so many storms and so much hard times but it endures this and through its journey grows into a mightier tree. Just like you will face these storms in life to reach your highest potential. This situation does not have to be bad it is a way of helping you evolve. I know its hard to take this in when you feel so low and upset but situations like this can help you take a new path places you never dreamed of and those will indeed be happier places. You have an opportunity here to turn your life around, we are all tested and challenged in life and its how we face these fears and challenges that create us. Be strong, set small achievable goals even if its take a small walk but try focus your energy elsewhere slowly and gradually so that you lose sight of the negativity in what has happened. He is a suffering soul too just as we all are and everyone does what they can to obtain their own happiness do not let him define you. If you and him were meant to be it the situation would not be as it is, you deserve better and will get better. He came into your life and left your life for a reason an you will figure that out when the time is right. Use this time now to figure out who you are what makes you happy and be the best that you can be. Letting go is not easy when it comes to people but it can be done just take it at your own pace and try not to harbour any ill feelings as that does nothing for you it will just hold you back from healing.
This is not a step back you are on the right path of recovery and onto bigger and better things. In time you will look back and thank him for this experience as it will open more doors for you than staying with someone that was not right for you by any means.