Hi Lenny……can’t say i have a lot of wisdom can only speak to my experience. i had a similar experience last year. I’ve suffered from depression for years and the last 3 or 4 years self-medicated with pain pills. i was dumped after 5 years and he didn’t have the decency to at least say he had used me. i found out he got married on Facebook when a week before i thought “we” were in a relationship…turns out i was the only one in the relationship. I’ve been faithful on my meds for a nearly a year and have struggled with the pills. it caused me to lose everything my home, car, u name it. also all the drugs do is exacerbate the situation if u struggle with depression. not to mention my best friend died from an accidental overdose. she was someone who loved life but the drugs took control. I’m staying w/a friend now for nearly a year no money my heartbroken, anger just lots of bad stuff and it certainly hasn’t helped my relationship with my kids. so all i can do is work on myself which has been very hard. in bed in dark room for days at a time sitting on sofa watching t.v. I’ve started getting up same time everyday..looking for work and I really believe i am healing. no more pills, reading positive things and just praying for healing and the ability to make better decisions about the people in my life. can’t say my heart has healed but every nite i ask he be blessed and happy in his relationship and I still after a year remind myself I’m the lucky one. its so very hard but like the wisdom shared shared with you above it gets better it really does. may not seem like it now…but you deserve so much better i know for me i had to realize my ex was just cruel otherwise how do you treat someone that way? and i remind myself i have enough problems i don’t need anyone to treat me and throw me out like trash. and you don’t need that either. please continue to come to this site..its helped me so much….and know that there are people you’ve never met sending good thoughts your way. you will be in my thoughts. you will get thru this and you will never accept anyone or anything thats not worthy of you. you are worthy you are loved and you deserve only the best….hang in there (not only do i talk to much..guess i write too much, sorry)!