Hi,
I can relate to somethings you’re experiencing and to what you’re feeling. You’re feeling stuck. And you created helplessness. But who created that you’re weak and powerless? You. You have enough power to create that you’re powerless (I know that sounds absurd and crazy but I don’t know a better way to put). The problem is that when we create such feelings and we believe that they’re true we protect this belief so we bend our perception of reality and of our life. If you bend your perception long enough you have the power also to change your reality. So advice such “don’t focus on bad things” don’t help and (sorry Anita) “stop wishing to get out” was even worst for me. Bad things are here, they are what they are. After long enough seeing that our life is bad, this becomes REAL. Bills are bills. Losing a car can be a big real problem, I lost mine.
If I can create an image of everything that you’re saying, it feels like you’re in a big hole and you believe that there’s no way out. Everywhere you go you hit a wall. And you feel isolated there also. If you keep trying you’ll keep hitting a wall. Life is asking you to change your approach. Look up or dig down. Find the way! And the way is different than what you’re used to do. What you’re doing is clearly not working. Do something that you don’t know. Take risks. Learn something new. Life is calling you to grow. Get out of the hole! That’s not your life.
And how to do it? First you need to change the belief that you’re weak and powerless. Can you frame this belief in an absurd way? Can you see the ridiculous side of it? If you can do that it will become difficult to keep believing it. And what are also the consequences of such belief? What did it do to you until now and what will it do to your life and to your family in the future?
Second. What do you want? You just wrote things that you don’t want. What are the things that you want? Can you do a list as big as you did with things that you want? And go after them, one by one? If you want to share with us, I’d love to see it.
You took 4 years or more building this belief and organizing your reality, so please have patience to come back. It will take some time to change your reality back.
Finally what helped me a lot when things go bad is to breath. It’s like putting your head out of this hole, when you’ll be feeling down put your head up and grab air. Take the time and breath deeply for some minutes.
An be grateful for every little thing that will come to help you come back, even if it is a drop of water, try to be grateful. It will bring your mind back to abundance.