Hi Anita, thanks for sharing your experiences. I am glad you have found peace and dont feel guilty. You have tried hard and if she cant find away to see that, its her loss. Did your mom reply or try to contact you?
I take it that your mum has a different relationship with you andcyour sister? Has that affected your relationship with your sister? Were you treated differently? I dontvhave sisters only brothers and maybe because its cultural but my brothers are treated vastly different than i am. More expectations to act a particular way. If i dont then im not being a good catholic girl. I am bringing shame to my family. Truth is ive always grown up a tom boy, albeit very emotional and sensitive. I guess we were never a close knit family. I was the baby and everyone was always too busy doing their own thing. I dont want to make excusesxwhy i feel these feelings of not being good enough or being the daughter my mom always wanted but truth is, arent you shaped by your past history?? I tried to explain why i am emotionally disconnected, because i never had that connection growing up. But i am congering the past where it should belong. I think thats very unfair and such backward thinking. There arrogance is so deafening.
Best Wishes