Good morning Anita. How are you doing today? You seemed upset the other day. I can certainly identify with your hurt. I was the one who went through school sitting in the back, never raising my hand, afraid to speak up because I thought no one wanted to hear from me. Praying that the teacher wouldn’t call on me and put me on the spot. I was the wallflower in high school, with such fear of rejection, that I could barely talk to a girl, much less ask her out on a date.

There is a recurring dream I’ve had all my life. In the dream I am by myself but wearing girls clothes. All of a sudden I hear people coming and I panic; looking for somewhere to hide. I’m can’t find anywhere to hide and I’m running in circles, terrified of being seen. The humiliation of being caught would be too much to bear. I get in such a panic that I usually wake up at this point. In real life I would wear girls clothes in public and walk around with my head held high and a smile on my face. This would be my way of proclaiming that this is ME and I’m not ashamed.

You make a difference Anita, a big difference!! Just from the way you help and support me and others on this site. We can’t change what happened to us, but we can learn to look at ourselves with greater compassion. Thats what I’m hoping to learn with time and practice. Hope you have a nice weekend.

Jim/Jamie