Oh my, you are not abnormal or unusual what so ever. You have gone through hell. You deserve so much in life, and all you have ever dealt with is pain. I am so sorry to hear what you have gone through. I was wondering if you have ever been to therapy or anything? It is completely common for you to feel the way you do. There are many people who get help for this kind of thing in order to have a normal life. You’re going to be okay. I’m sure he understands. You cannot feel as if your reaction is not normal. You are definitely a victim of a lot more than just sexual abuse. Do what is best for you and don’t let anyone ever make you feel as if you are abnormal for feeling this way.