Hello El 🙂 It looks like you’re trying to hold on to your past relationship because the pain of letting it go completely is worse than enduring the pain of it now. I remember having a friend who was in an abusive relationship, who reasoned that she endured 90 percent of the pain just to taste the 10 percent of the good times.

I know it seems easier to keep him in your life, but for people like him who manipulate and trick others, it’s usually best to cut all ties. Like Inky said, if you want to be fair, you can tell him before doing it. To add to what Inky said, it is important that you do not wait for his reply. It will just give him the opportunity to drive you paranoid, whether by responding with sweet talk or not responding at all.

He doesn’t control you anymore, so don’t let him by giving him the opportunity to take hold of your mind. The best way to stop being paranoid about not hearing from him, is to stop hearing from him at all. That way, he can no longer drive you mad with the suspense.

I believe you already know what is best for you, like all the wonderful things you said you’ve been doing lately. That’s a wonderful way to love yourself. Keep doing more of the things you love, and free yourself from anything that’s keeping you from being happy. I wish you bright days to come. Stay strong and choose to be happy, El 🙂