Dear Karlo,
Thank you so much for your kind words. I really appreciated what you wrote down here and I feel so much better. I always think if I am wrong to leave my bf in his most difficult time. I truly think the most common & big mistake that Depressed people make is pushing away their loved ones. I really wish you and my ex will let people into their lives and help you guys instead of suffering it alone, you are still the fighter of your own life, but being next to your loved ones will at least make you feel better about yourself and give you unlimited energy to face all the challenges.
Don’t worry some day some one will come and love you unconditionally. I don’t know much about how a depressed person feels, but from a perspective of someone who has a depressed partner, I think I can give you a few advices:
– If you need your own spaces, just tell your partner. But make sure you are still available to her somehow, like reply to some of her texts, messages etc
– Let your gf help you. Trust her. If she “failed”, you learn a lesson. If she “succeedes”, you two will experience a wonderful thing called love. Everybody has her/his own down phases, believe me every girl/woman wants to protect her loved one 🙂
After all, let not only yourself but your special one have a CHANCE to love you too. I wish you luck in everything in life, I hope all your dreams come true and you finally found your dream girl!