@anita: We always dream of a house on a few acres, surrounded by woods and land and few people. We want to eventually be self sustaining, growing our own fruits and veggies, and hunting / growing our own meat. I would have my own office for work and art, and general use, my fiancée would have his man cave, my son would have the best bedroom, we’d have a nice kitchen that I could finally feel comfortable cooking in, and a nice big fridge/freezer, and another bigger freezer for stocking up for the winter and stuff like that. We want to be off grid as possible – it just seems to be the only answer for us to work as people. We shouldn’t have to conform to what people want us to be, and instead be able to work with what we have and grow from there.

We both feel like we were never prepared for “the real world” of being an adult. Our anxiety makes it difficult to learn on our own, and also detracts from confidence levels.

He grew up in a really bad situation, didn’t really have proper parents, and wasn’t really prepared for functioning as an adult either. My parents just kind of let me do my thing and did not really try. I wish they had been a little more strict with me, and made sure I learned the skill sets needed for adult life.

I’m not sure how else to explain it, I just feel like a kid in adult shoes.

I feel like I have forgotten how to learn, too, my brain just overloads with anxiety and i can’t think. I sometimes feel like Dori from finding nemo, the way she forgets things every 3 seconds or whatever. I cant seem to hold on to information purposely. I end up offending people in conversation cus I can’t remember things they just said.