Hello, I happen to come across your post. I went true a similar experience lasting close to 12 months ago. It was in the beginning exciting, than it became very painful. I also thought we had a connection. Looking back I can’t believe it was me excepting crumps from this individual. Deep down I think my reason for tolerating his behavior I thought he was my soulmate. The missing link to an unavailable father. I want to thank you for your post, it help me look at myself and learn to honor myself. Bina