Dear H1978:

After I shared with you the last post I wrote.. I felt quite emotional, the old distress, I felt some of it. It was so very difficult for me to re-live even just a bit of it and it WAS extremely difficult for me to leave my mother and have no contact with her anymore. I was so trapped in focusing on her pain… so committed to fixing it when I was powerless to do so…

What my experience is telling me, the fact that you relate to it, what I understand is how difficult it is, can be, to extricate yourself from an abusive situation. Your last post, right above, it has all the right thinking… but I know it is emotionally difficult.

I also know it is possible. If only you had the support that you needed, like you wrote, you could do it… Of course, I am not surprised you do not have the support of your family (If you had a loving family/ parents to start with… you wouldn’t stay in an abusive situation this long!)

I am so sorry you are in this situation. I know it only too well.

I hope that here, on tiny buddha, I can be of some support to you. It is not all the support that you need, far from it. Face to face, safe place you could go to… that would be just right.

I am here on this forum for you, on your side. Anytime you want to write, please do and I will respond. Again and again, for as long as you need me here. If you do.

Humbly here for you!
anita