I must admit she started to come into my orbit when we started talking. She blamed me for a couple stuff that is going on in her life. And I am shame to say but with all the anger I had that she dumped me, I judged her and criticized her harshly. Much harsher than I have ever done when I had been in the relationship with her. Christmas Day was the last time I used a harsh words on her. She never saw me angry, in anxiety, or out of control with my emotions in the relationship. Always calm and relaxed. I think she was shocked. I just wish I had not done that. We talked good for a few days after that, we talked about probably meeting up, I was helping her out with some stuff, it was feeling like things were getting back good again. She started reaching out and I started to be more relaxed and in peace of mind. Then just all of a sudden, she went back to her old mode again. Withdrawn.

After I sent her a long message about how I am growing from this relationship and I have recognized the frighted parts of my personality and we should try to cultivate the loving parts of our personality. She sent me a message that I should move on with my life and pick up the pieces.