@lonely88 The small things we do for someone are the greatest. You said you didn’t love this girl enough and you took her for granted etc etc. That is not true don’t put stories in your mind you did everything you possibly can for this person you gave her your attention, love, time and most importantly your heart. You invested yourself in her and even gave her everything you worked for(the furnished apartment etc). You said you’re at a low point in your life it’s time you change this. You work on yourself and make the best version of yourself get back on your feet. Believe in yourself, you’re greater than you think you. Just cut connection with this person and do yourself. Make yourself desirable and make yourself great. You can do whatever you set your mind too.