I’m glad to see all these positive responses and i recently had a deep talk with a close friend almost close my age and you are just emphasizing that. Everyone put up masks to be able to deal with life in a good way, where i maybe might be a bit naive thinking that i shall try to never wear a mask again. I want to get so far i won’t be needing a mask and just do things as the real me. I believe it’s actually possible but requires effort. And through this talk i had, i actually realized more and more, one of my friends/instructors I’ve looked up to for 10 years has been through all the same.

One thing i might do different too, is i’m no longer afraid of it(of my past and talking about it). It might be the wrong way to go about it(i’m thinking maybe i enter a victim role too often, when the goal is to be open). Often when i meet new people that i feel i instinctively trust, i tell them short summary of my story, to let them in and get to know the real me. I love to make connections with people, and i feel i don’t want more of those mediocre connections, i want the real deal so i try take the first step and see if i click deeper with people.

I also have friends my age who deals with alot, and yes…i am seeing i can be a asset in my group of friends to be a person to be asked, but when i do see people struggling sometimes i just say random stuff that comes to me instinctively and that makes them open up and i can give them my point of view. To answer both last posts, i think the thing i lack the most, and my friend that i had a long talk with the other day agreed. I think what most people are missing the most is self-acceptance, much what you mentioned in your post Axuda. People don’t see you through your own eyes, so they might just see a person that seems confident, but for me in my eyes i see everything else. Of course some days are better than others, but i think i can see my path clearer and clearer, and just the last two days my confidence has rose again.

So thanks for all the feedback and advice you have given here 🙂