Hi Zita! This is my first time on a forum here. I just wanted to say: hang in there! At 54, I have been through many phases of feeling lost and directionless. Unfortunately, they still pop up from time to time, and mid-life is another period of huge transition. The best thing I have learned is to simply accept discomfort as part of life, without seeing it as wrong or abnormal. Like you, I tend to castigate myself when I’m not feeling all chipper and motivated, especially when everyone around me seems to be living perfect lives, but resisting the feelings only make them worse. So first, just breathe and let those feelings be without trying to push them away. Then, think in baby steps. I know it feels great when you can look a long way down the road ahead, but that’s mostly an illusion anyway. Just look at one day or week at a time: what really needs doing in that time period? Give yourself permission to just not know what’s going to happen beyond that. You will know when the time comes! I can see what an amazing person you are: funny and interesting and caring. You will get through this with flying colors. Amaya