Yes! Everything you said I get I live everyday May will be a year since this happened and casually I had to pretend I’m okay at one point put on a fake face put on a fake show hide my emotions so people don’t know I’m crazy or think that I’m obsessive for not being able to move past something they’ve allready moved past. If anyone knows online support groups where we can help one another through this! I need to do something different then being sad or turning to alchool to get past this