Hi Tannhauser……You seem pretty fed up to me!!
I read what you write, and I get it Bro…I really, really get what you are saying, & feeling.And its ok to feel like it…embrace these feelings.
You need a break…a rest, from it all….all what upsets you. Enrages you. Depresses you. All the things that get your goat, have a break from. Do something, anything that YOU ENJOY doing, or, not doing. And then, hopefully, you will feel better. I hope you will, I really do.
But for now, please rest, chill, relax.
Speak soon, hopefully, your friend & ever well wisher, Deano