I feel grateful I have found this website. Thanks for sharing the details of your life Smileybat and your response Matt. Both of you have helped me in different ways. I now feel comfortable sharing myself and current situation with you. I think it is possible to improve things if we want to enough. Support while we do it is gold.

I’m 68 and have recently experienced poisoning from Fluoride in antibiotic form. The physical changes to my whole life as I knew it are difficult. It’s been about 30 years since I haven’t had a full time, ego-fulfilling job. I’ve prided myself so much on the job I’ve done, the service I’ve provided, the support I’ve given, and the meaning I’ve garnered out of all that, it’s hard to watch it change from what I made it all into, without knowing where it’s going from here. I feel like a chicken without feathers today.

I’m a little bewildered yet I see a potential for a life that exists in something like a parallel universe, where I don’t have to be crushed by defeat, run out and glom on to something else just to fill my time. I admit I’m am uncertain about many things right now and that’s okay. I know I have to find ways to improve my health. I’ve had to be creative to get help because this isn’t a notable affliction with easy cures and simple get-wells , I’m being resourceful and finding someone to replace me at work while I’m healing. Right now I’m going over the site, tuning in to some wise council to spend more time meditating, making room to look at my part and try to remember who I was before I got caught up in my dream. I’d like to reinvent myself and how I live my life from here on out and I’m not sure how I’m going to do that. Thanks for listening.