Thank you for the heart-felt responses guys. Sometimes I am disgusted with myself because I’m so consumed by this that I don’t take a look around me and appreciate what I have. I have easily wasted weeks of time being within my own mind and not cherishing moments given to me. The people who are here for me and really care become background to my obsession with this. Its awful of me and I have been trying to make efforts to take hold of moments before those too are gone.