Anita, I apologize for missing your post on April 1. I cannot see this page very well on my phone – the layout of the website is off the screen and I cannot see the posts well.

I was and am doing fine. Our dog was in heat a few days ago and a tiny dog sneaked into our garden and she bit him. ☹️ Fortunately, he was okay. I took him home (He is a frequent visitor. I know where he lives.) And within a few minutes he came back and got bitten again! It seems that the instinct to reproduce is stronger than the instinct to self-preservation. 😅

I hope you are doing fine, too. I guess that now you will have a lot to do at work. The spring is here and the season of working outside just started. 😊 We have a lot to do, too. We are building a new place for wood storage and preparing our garden for new seeds etc.

Hello Alessa,

In my opinion it always depends on specific situation, specific people, specific pain, …

Someone’s pain is bearable, someone’s pain can be too much for us… someone hurt is kind and willing to change, someone hurt is very toxic and hurt others…

It also depends on us, our sensitivity, abilities to filter others suffering…

I leave when I see that the person in pain is not willing to change. How can I help then? I can’t. Also, who am I to try to change them? It is their unique path, they have to go through their own life and suffering to be able to grow. “It is not my place to impose myself on others.” I might try to tell them that I care and wait if my words will reach the person one day and he/she will decide to take steps to heal.

I am writing about things such as alcoholism, toxic negativity… I don’t know what you are writing about. It all depends on specific situation.

😊

Hello Anita,

I am not sure what you mean. I have learned to enjoy both positive and negative emotions. I let them come and go. I don’t dwell on my emotions and it makes my life so much happier. A lot has changed since I started practicing meditation and mindfulness carefully.

Hello Alessa,

I understand and agree with you. Now when somebody is rude, I know it is not him or her, but a kind of suffering in the person. When the suffering is too strong and thus too overwhelming for me, I leave the person with kind and peaceful thoughts. I send him or her my good wishes in my mind, but for my wellbeing I need to leave the person. I am not yet strong enough to be able to heal others with my energy and compassion… and that’s absolutely okay. I am not worried or disappointed that I cannot help others anymore. I know I must help myself first.

I liked this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IrJwo86KDfc&t=737s

I’m on phone and one line got lost in my last post. I just wanted to add that it is fine that we can learn from each other… from experiences and also the different way of thinking and processing things… 😊☀️

Hello Anita,

thank you for your messages. You are very kind. ❤️

Honestly, I felt like I had lost a friend. But as is often the case with me, I feel differently than the people around me.

I don’t want you to feel bad about what I wrote. Don’t worry, there’s not much room in my heart for any bad feelings. ☀️ If this whole thing hurt me a little, but in the end helped you or someone just reading this, that it’s always better to be vulnerable and honest than to be afraid and silent and then just be wrong, that’s good.

I do pick up on people’s energies… but I can’t say if I’m good at evaluating it. It feels now that I cannot fully trust myself, because my fear creates a “filter” that makes me confused and often wrong.

Sometimes I ask why I had to be born this way. Being oversensitive is hard in this world. I must learn to work with it better.

❤️