I had a thought today, and I don’t know if I mentioned this before, but the first time I started questioning my feelings was for about a month ago after she asked me if I didn’t love her anymore. This made me every sad and I started questioning If I even loved her. And of course I did! I told/tell her multiple times a day and also show her that I love her. I mean yes, I started to act a bit less clingy against her, but we was together almost every day and I just couldn’t keep snuggling and Kissing her every 5 minutes every day. It got too much. But It hurt me when she asked If I didn’t love her anymore. I knew I did, but I still questioned it. A bit like now. So I had a thought today, that maybe it has something to do with the fact that I feel like I have to love her and be over the moon with her every single minute of the day. And the second I don’t feel that (When she left on a trip) I started questioning if I even loved her, because im used to being with her all the time where I can show her my love. Im not quite sure if this could mean anything or if it even makes sense, but it made sense for me:).

Im still a bit nervous about going back to her, because I’m afraid that I will end up hurting her again and I think that I have convinced my brain that I don’t have feelings for her so much and for so long that I’m afraid that I don’t really more. I can also feel that the thought of breaking up with her doesn’t even make my cry anymore because I’m so used to thinking that it is the only way out of the fear. Could it be that I have just lost feelings? But again when I’m with her everything seems so good and the only times where I question my feelings is when I think of the days before where all the thoughts have been around.

THANK YOU SO MUCH! This makes so much sense and It explains why I feel like not being with her even though I want to be with her. Im still on a break with her and I don’t really know if I should stop the break or wait it out so I don’t fall into the same pit with texting her so much that I don’t enjoy time with my friends. I also want to ask you if the feeling of not being in love with her could be caused because I don’t want to go up to the mountain again and that I unknowingly tell myself that I’m not in love with her so I’m more likely to not go back onto the mountain?

It also seems like my opinion on what to do changes ALL the time. At one moment I want her back and just want to be with her and the next moment I fantasise about being single, but I still love her and every time I dream about being single I always fantasise about meeting her again where I would fall in love again. Yes, I said again. Today I have been questioning my feelings for her and I’m not sure if my fear and overthinking is making me fall out of love or if im convincing myself if I’m still in love. When we are together I just sit there and admire her and when I see her in the hallways on my school I can’t stop falling I love with her beautiful face. Im just confused and don’t know what I want.

Yes im back, I deleted my account because I was scared of which answer I would get because I overthink everything and somewhat listen to stuff that I read even though it doesn’t really suit my situation