Anita,

It’s actually been somewhat of a priority of mine to get out of this country for a long time now. When I said skills and education I meant like you know how people immigrate and after that they live there and get a job and stuff well I don’t think I can do that. The only skill I have is English (barely a skill at all but it’s not very useless where I live) I’m looking to become an English teacher (not out of love or passion just feels like a desperate move) I’m still in university (studying translations). Who knows maybe one day I’ll be able to get out of this damn country and follow what I love.

Thank you.

Anita,

Thank you so much for understanding it is a relief.

I would definitely move if I could but I just don’t have enough skills or high levels of education to go to another country and be able to make a living there. I sometimes do wish I could get some knowledge on this stuff as I deeply despise the country I live in it’s like nothing matters over here nobody cares about anything. I really wanted to pursue music but due to my country’s rules and stuff I was unable. I sometimes don’t even know why I’m still living and if it is even worth going through so much. If I wasn’t such a coward I would’ve killed myself a long time ago but I don’t have the courage.

Thanks for the time anyway.

Peter,

first I’d like to say I do know the as above so below thing and so far it hasn’t helped me in this situation. Yes you can turn around give someone you hate a hug but if the person is not worthy of it and they’re just going to use that to their advantage I say screw hugging your enemy as I’ve suffered enough.

I used to find “fighting for peace” ironic too but then I got into this situation and now I understand that it is in fact possible to fight for peace so maybe you haven’t been in a similar situation. I cannot make a drastic change in my perception after being emotionally wounded by my sister for such a long time. She doesn’t need inspiration I don’t know what she needs I just wanna go and stay away from her but I can’t because I can’t afford a house SO I’m trying to look for ways to cope living with this selfish stuck up person till I be able to afford a house and move out.

I’m sorry but things DO look easier for others. Looking at other people everyone loves their siblings and they get whatever they want in life whereas I can’t even get peace and quite in the house. I KNOW I shouldn’t be comparing myself to others but these thoughts come around and they make me sick knowing how unfair this world can be. I suppose everyone has a different road to travel I just wish things were easier for me that’s all…

My current coping mechanism in this world is knowing that life is limited and I’ll eventually leave this life and find peace. It may be sad to some but this is all that life has given me…

Some cry because their daddy didn’t bought them an iphone whereas I cry because I’m sick and tired of all this emotional abuse and you’re telling me it only “seems” that way.

*sigh* yes well I guess you’re right. I just wish things were a bit easier. Things always seem easy for everyone else but when it come to me it feels like a huge war that I have to fight just to get some peace. Thanks for the help highly appreciated <3 maybe I’ll be able to find a very cheap place to live in and find some job ot whatever. Thanks.